Today I learned

Why is everything you watch, hear, and see also seem like it is relevant to what is going on in your lives.

And fuck I have to turn my phone on to get the quotes one second....

btw, turned my phone off because I am a mean person and take it out on people even if it does not have to do anything with them. I have been really frustrated about my money situation and want more so I can do more happy activities for the special one. Having a shortage of money has been preventing me to change my ways... but thats another day. And if I am not mean for a day maybe I can see the special one, but on the real I think I need to move on. I have been trying hard for what I have at the time to impress the special one, to meet her needs and have her be satisfied in our relationship that we have, but the return is not fulfilling. We have bad communication and understanding each other and as I see it, we do not have a balance for each other characteristics.

"Life does not change, you just become comfortable with your core misery which is a form of happiness."

Going to the next statement I herd which was something about you make a new relationship to cover up the pain of the previous ones. Sound like a continuous life cycle, unless you find some true love happiness and have kids and everything but that does not exist anymore.

I am scared of relationships and rather not put a title on something that makes me happy. I see my views as if I believed in a relationships then that would be a goal to achieve for, but once you accomplish your goal, what is there to work for. Also, there is no more goals to reach for and the only way you can go is down.

Like a star shining so bright can only explode or die, but his achievements will not make him greater. He has created standards for him that he will continually have to achieve just to be successful.

Where when you are on top there is only failure to look forward to which leads to depression and misery.

What to do to prepare yourself for the cycle of life happiness?